since i found and joined this list i know that there are soooooo many of us suffering thru all this bullshit !!! i found out i am not crazy...

so the doctors know there are thousands and thousands of us all medicated in order to live, so why dont they do research on us and find a cure... i know it aint like cancer or anything like it but damn it is a bad illness.....we are just going to stay medicated for the rest of our lives in order to function something like "normal" people do.then our bodies over years (mine) gets used to this medication and we then need something stronger (well i do anyway)

everything we do takes extra effort for us...everything is harder to do...i hate dealing and trying to cope with this bloody madness and all the time trying to show that i am not as sick as what i really am.
gosh we all have the same symptoms the same reactions we all know what is going on within the other persons body and brain.....now if we all know the doctors know too soooooooooooooo i reckon they should do something about us ....find a one off pill that will cure us forever.... wouldnt that be great.
we need to relax...that is what hubby told me last night he said for christ sake just calm down you never relax well i dont know how to relax and when i get heated up i am like a mad woman dashing here there and everywhere swearing an yellin at animals and anything else that gets in my way while i am trying to do whatever i have to be doing at the time.
then it passes and all the animals are looking at me so strangely...as if to say you bloody idiot sit down and shut up.....and i am thinking shit what did start all that !
just needed to vent a little !

love mistyblade xxx