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Realy messsed up tonight

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I have been here before. In the place right before I take the big fall into major disfunctional depression. I havent been able to get to sleep in 3 days. I see my doc in a week and a half but what until then? And itisnt like he can help me either. The last 3 drugs I have tried have damaged my health in such a way that I have had to come off them. Theyhave left me worse than I was before. I havent cut in forever. By that I mean YEARS. But it seemed so apealing before I came to my senses and got on line for support. I feel like I have lost myself. On top of tht I seem to keep getting kicked while I am down. If someone in my life is going to be an ass couldnt they wait for me to be at my best so I am in a place to cope with them? I suppose I should know that isnt how life works.I have been self medicating in a disfunctional way the past four days. But I have to get through this some how. When your doc and everyone else cant help shouldnt you do what it takes to keep fighting even if it is something your not proud of?
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If you mean cutting, NO! It's fantastic that you haven't cut in years.
You didn't say if you were in counseling?
Can you call your doctor to see if he can help you w/the insomnia?
It's also great that you went online for support.
Hang in there w/us.
(((HUGS))).
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((hugs)) I agree keeping going is most important. But we have to try our best to take care of ourselves while we do so. I think, right now, the best thing would be to try and get some sleep. I know that might sound lame, but it makes a big difference. Make yourself a mug of hot milk and turn down the lights. Not all problems need be solved in one night. Sometimes just getting some sleep in is all that matters.
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Sleep has been the problem. I CANT!!! Not right now anyway.They have dropped all my meds and I am bipolar. I have taken a muscle relaxer a xanax and a whole bottle of wine and for the third day strait I cant sleep. You would think that would knock me on my ass. I hoped it would!!! I am in counceling I try realy hard to take care of myself (even the self medication of tonight is in the hopes of sleep and a better tomorrow. But given free reign I cant fight the chemicals in my brain.The worse I am the less my counceling techniques work.
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Come on, I know you know that alcohol makes for trouble sleeping. I'd bet if you got some calcium in you, laid back and read a book....you'd eventually get to sleep. I've had some wicked nights of insomnia and for all the docs ever did for me a cup of hot milk, an otc sleeping pill, and a book always knocked me out in the end.
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I appreciate the suggestion and will give it a try but his is mania I am stareing in the face. I couldbe up for a freakin week no matter what I do. will let you know if the milk helps. Thanks
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Hi Jendragon...I'm sorry you are having so much trouble...and my heart goes out to you...I don't get any help and am dealing with things like this myself....A hot cup of camomile tea with lemon and honey is the best I have found....
Although I am trying a new vitamin supplement...called Tranquility a shot....this is my 3rd night....and have slept more peacefully the last 2 nights than I can remember....I hope they continue to help....

I'm with the others...in believing that self medicating with wine isn't the way to go....I hope you continue to reach out...until you can get the help you are needing....Take care...and keep us posted on how you are doing....
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Oh ya...I also want to add...that magnesium is helping too....Are you taking any natural supplements?
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