Good God what is wrong with my children and every freakin else in my life. Why cant I get the girls to follow the rules and just be good for one day? I have a few boxes of my breakable things and things that have dear memory to me. Savannah's baby books. Dakota's baby books. Ceramics that my grandmother made for me before I was born and after I was born. A few porcline birds with music boxes inside and an angel that was made out of procline and rotated around. Well my angle is broken. The music box inside it is ripped out. She is missing a wing both hands and the book that it was holding. My favorite one is a yellow bird with a music box it dosnt revolve. The bird is in tact but one of the branches on its gone. I cant find it down there at all. I looked for the pieces of the angel and I could only find the one broken off wing. My grandmother also made me praying hands out of cermaic and one of the hands is missing and I cant find it. It brought back all those grief feelings I have been dealing with since I was a child. So I will try looking again tommorow when I am less upset and more calm. They also got into Dakota's baby pictures, ultra sound pictures, and the certificate with Dakota's feet prints on it. All of those things were just laying on the floor. I am so angry and upset right now its not even funny.
Posts You May Be Interested In
I have been here before, a long long time ago and now I am back.Forgive me for not just saying what I want to say,even under a triple dose of antidepressants it is still raw and seeping and I am hesitant at revealing it as at least under the bandages around my heart I don,t have to look at how raw and wounded.My child was cleaved from my heart by his own actions. my child of ten,turning eleven...
I gave my 2 week notice last Friday 13th. Now to join you fine people in a life of leisure and nothing else to do but to look out for myself....is it just me or does that sound pretty boring? My goal was to live to retire and I guess having to take early retirement because of health reasons wasn't exactly the way I had planned things. I just can't stay in that building that is reeking mildew...