I can't believe this is happening. It took me five months and I exhausted my unemployment. I finally found a job. Went back to teaching live, in person, on-site this month. Halfway through the orientation when students arrive, third day in, I get ridculously sick. More sick than I usually get. I have not been this sick since before Covid began . I testd negative for Covid, yet the symptoms linger on. Mid last week, I had a very severe sore throat and a fever. Had intense pain all over my body, and pain in my chest when breathing. Was sick to my stomach too. It was advised that medics come out because of the chest pain. I had decent oxygen levels, but the chest pain was there nonethless.
Needless to say, I was really surprised when the Covid test came back negative. The paramedic said the tests are often wrong. I think it was a PCR test. Nasal swab. I was sick very badly last week Wed thru Friday. Saturday I worked about 11 hours, but I had no appetite. I could barely just eat salad.
Today, Sunday, the rawness and the frog in my throat came back. I'm still coughing. And, I still can only tolerate soup. If I were to go into work and try to teach school like this, parents and students would be furious. I decided to call my boss sooner instead of later; she was anxiously awaiting my test result. I said that if I were to come in obviously still sick, I'm sure the community would not be happy at all. I was going to write my school plans last week-but again-I was unwell. So, she asked me to send some school plans on, which I did and I had to create some on the spot.
She was not happy about this situation at all, and when I said I didn't feel confident about the first instructional day (my illness being the reason, and I was too exhausted to get papers together) she said, "You had two weeks to prepare for this!" Yeah, about two to 2.5 weeks-in which time I became deathly ill. What part of "there is raging Coronavirus all over the place," don't you understand?? This school does not employ subs. I have no idea why. The sick time is without pay. I asked if there was anything I could do remotely, and her response was that the organization forbids remote work. They never went remote during the pandemic. Really? In this environment? Like who ISN'T working at least somewhat remote these days.
I don't understand it. I am still unwell and I can't seem to shake it, and sick to my stomach also. Whatever I have just won't go away! I'm so glad my best friend called me back and we had the chance to talk this through. She was keeping me from going over the ledge becuase I feel like I'm losing my mind. I didn't admit it to her, but I've been breaking dishware over this stupid virus, that's how much I resent it. We talked through some options and she reminded me that new and unexpected things have happened, and that a lot is largely out of our control.
Well I am back. I didn't write a couple days. Hoping things were calming here. it is the middle of the night right now. My husband and I were kind of calm and ok the last day or so. about and hour ago, we have our dogs up on bed with us, the one dog couldn't get comfy. I awoke hearing my husband fussing with him. I said "oh what's going on". My husband said what do you think is going on,...
I signed up for online therapy because I have been feeling more anxious than usual lately due to so many changes in my life. I have had this constant tightness in my chest and feeling worried about everything. So, I decided to give therapy a try. Today was my first session and it was a brief 10 minute meet and greet. She asked what brought me to therapy and what I was looking to get out of it...