Youve been strong for 2 months. Dont let yourself down now. Please find anything to distract you, read a book, watch a film, put some crazy music on and dance till you drop .... anything.

I get how lame this sounds, but my drug of choice is often a good workout or a run. Does make me high. Hope you can find something ... anything ... that will get you past the craving.

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You sound like a person full of potential. You have so much to offer. You're so young don't give up on yourself. I the cause is your Mom's death...I hope your therapist is helping you resolve it. My therapist didn't really help much but the antidepressants gave me the breathing space to figure out a lot of things. As you get older you begin to understand that events in your life had a purpose..... it is like the old movie "It's a Wonderful Life"....I loved that movie from the first time I saw it... some think it is corny and Kapra is too sentimental... but there is truth in the story... don't just look at yourself... look around you... small things you do or did affect so many peoples lives...and you don't even realize it. I am sure you bring joy to your father and boyfriend...and without you there would be a hole in their hearts.... they feel your joy and they feel your pain. You are never alone... I did not understand that when I was depressed...but now it is so clear to me... and one of the reasons so many people are depressed is because we have been so distracted by the wrong values. It is not about money, prestige, accomplishments....those are nice, but they are after products... the focus is on following your heart... doing the right thing for you... treating others as you want to be treated... feel sympathy and empathy for others... they are just like you... you are just like them.... we are all one. It would solve a lot of problems in this would if everyone would change their thinking... But for now on a small level...we change individually and we change others that we are in contact with. It is not propaganda...there is no hidden agenda... it is purely out of being human. We are all born and we all die. That is a fact. Some suffer more than others... some have a longer life than others.... but everyone in their own way has contributed you must have...unless you were a complete recluse...had no parents...never went to school, never went outside at all. I think about overhearing conversation at the grocery store...and how it makes me think...be curious and see the connections they are everywhere.... this way of thinking will empower you and give you purpose... Too many things make people feel it is you against me, them against you....and it goes on and on and it is ridiculous if you really think about it. People have lost their ability to think and feel for themselves...and as a result you will lose your joy...I wish you luck...please don't go back on the drugs...you are in pain that is a quick fix...but it is temporary and it is just delaying addressing the real issue. I feel like therapist are paid so much...when our friends, family and strangers can give us the same or better advice for free. If I can help you feel better, just let me know.

Please don't. It's so temporary and you'll have to go through all the 'coming off' again. You CAN get through this, somehow. THINK of how much you wanted to be free of drugs. REALISE they will kill you. HOPE for something better for yourself. DO something to take your mind off things. CHANGE your way of thinking, DECIDE to CHOOSE not to let the dern drugs DEFEAT you again. Have FAITH in yourself. I BELIEVE you can do this. x

thankyou so much for ur support.x

You're doing really good staying clean so long. Those days of temptation will come and go. Don't give in to them. Big hugs to give you strength.

I know exactly how you feel... and i've never even taken drugs other than prescription ones. You just want it all to stop.... yep, me too. With all the research in the world, why has noone found the answer to kick depression and stress related illnesses up the *ss!