last night i couldn't stop crying all night

today i was hoping things would be all right

waking up in this broken home

waking up all alone.



my ex called me to play some games

to be a little boy and name some names

i laughed and told him to tell her good luck

cause i've been there and he's not a good fuck.



sometimes i say these things just to be mean

but i'm sick of his doped out heroin scene

he cheated with her and i bet it'll last

but fuck his nonsense he's in the past.



my boy called to make sure i'm okay

to tell me i am and today's another day

made me smile with the shit he said

made me laugh with "you'd be better off dead".



sarcastic brown boy to help me get in trouble

who will pick me up out of this broken down rubble.

who will feed me pills and hold me close

and get rid of all of yesterday's ghosts.



my mom cried to me cause she can't go on

cause she just found out what i've known all along.

sometimes life isn't worth living but its there for the taking

and you only get stronger when you're heart is breaking.



i laughed at myself when i looked in the mirror

cause all of a sudden things were just so clear

i rocked out and danced my problems away

cause fuck my mistakes, tomorrows another day.



so live it up and play the music loud

forget your mistakes and try to be proud

cause nothing you can do will change whats been done

live it up to see the rising sun.



maybe you'll feel like shit later on

maybe someday all your money will be gone

but whats life without stupidity

whats being stupid without being me?