Its suddenly dawned on me that unless I were to post that im about to kill myslef, or have already taken those steps... that no one actually gives a damn about me. Its ok...im not going to fall apart over it but I realise that those of us that dont constantly post morbid thoughts, or ask for this person and that person to be hugged 50 million times today please, arent really bothered with and are never mentioned for any special treatment. Dont get me wrong, I dont want any special treatment but you know... theres more people on DS than the suicidal ones that post day after day what theyve done or will do to themselves. I guess to be held in any high regard on here you have to want to die or be constantly posting to have anyones attention. Sorry if none of you like what Ive said. Acutally, you know what? Im not sorry... its the truth. Just because I dont post suicidal posts every 5 minutes dosnt mean that sometimes I dont need help and that goes for so many others on here that are getting constantly overlooked. But who gives a shit really...my guess is... not a lot of you.
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