I just don't understand, I guess I shouldn't be feeling so blue, there's probably a hundred people worse off then myself, but... I dunno, I have just given up. Last night was my breaking point. I try not my best to let people who treat me like crap, get to me and that's fine, I usually forget about it. But when someone you love hurts you by being so inconsiderate, you have to question if the whole entire human race is selfish? I'm sick of my friends, they are so self-centred and I can't think of the word so I will use fake. I don't feel like I belong anywhere, I look like no one. My parents are migrants but I basically grew up in Australia, I still don't 'belong'. Went back to our country and guess what didn't belong there either(Everyone there thought I was foreigner). I'm no one, I'm an alien, I feel like I shouldn't exist. Every part of me hurts, I'm alone, I feel like no one understands. I know deep in my heart though there aren't selfish people, and that just because other people are the way they are doesn't mean i should be. The hardest part is as much as I want to be with my partner I don't think I can, its something he can never understand, my culture, my 'belonging'.
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