I sometimes wonder if it's worth trying to please everyone. And do what the expect of me. I'm falling fast and feel like I'm losing the people around me. I know they have problems and they feel pretty bad, but I still feel like I'm losing them. I class that as selfish, and so I try not to worry but I can't help it. I wonder how it would feel to stop and feel nothing. To be free. And it's something I crave so much. I was asked a few weeks back 'If you had a wish what would it be?' I said 'To be free'. And it's something I'm trying to achieve, even if it's not by the best methods.
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