I feel so alone these days..Just me in this place called earth..I feel like I am in hell..In search of an angel..If only to save me for a brief moment in time..I have alot to look forward to in my working world..But coming home to an empty home kills me on the inside a little more each time I open the door..All I have ever wished for is to have someone to come home to..a few kids and love from another person..I really don't have any friends..I am trapped between the now and then..The big question is "Who am I ?" Born into this world under one name and given a new one at the age of 17..I have been abandoned..rejected..and mistreated since the day I was born..yet I still try to see the silver lining in every gray cloud..I am hanging on by a thread some days and others I work so much that I don't have time to think..Maybe there is nothing to look forward to but death and taxes..Maybe thats the only reason that I am here and now..to add that pocket change to uncle sams pocket until the day I die..which will be many..many moons from now.. I just wonder if I am only a mistake that god made..everyone makes mistakes..maybe even god does too..But then again maybe its just not my time to shine yet..If not now then when?..who knows..just needed to vent..thanks for reading my thoughts..hope your day has went better than mine..Does anyone else feel this way or am I alone?
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