first of all i want to thank you all for your love and support and believe me i know that the attack tuesday could have been alot worse but what i am mainly dealing with now is all the memories of a long time ago when it happened.i went through counseling went through a trial and he was convicted then a few years ago i read his obituary in the paper. so why after all these years am i having the nightmares and the feelings and even smelling him again. is this telling me that no matter how much you work through your issues they will always be with you.i just don't want all this garbage in me again.i just don't want to go back in that deep dark hole again. i want peace so desperately in my mind.
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