k73, I think-- we define the purpose and any purpose that takes you out depression -- wi;l be good. Even if the staff looks completely impossible or unacceptable. I, once being unemployed, worked as a waitress and dishwasher, because I simply could not find another job-- but believe me, I was so happy that time-- I was baadly tired, no time to think and it gave me money, even if little.

I had a shrink ask me to define my life purpose in seven words or less years ago... it was really hard and took a long time to come up with something, first cause I thought a purpose needs to be like something really grand. I worked on that and finally came up with: "To honor my creator with my creativity" which may sound a bit stupid but even after all these years, it will pop into my head and remind that hey, aint you supposed to be making art? And then if I concentrate towards doing art projects, it does help me get out of the deep slumps.

Mars-- you know-- you helped me a lot actually, with those 7 words. Thanks-- here they are-- 'Get Ph.d. done. Get Julia raised properly.' -- Now I feel in track back.

hang in there. we all love you here.

K you have a purpose you make me laugh and smile all the time. Not to many people can do that anymore. I love you honey.

Why do we need a purpose. If its so hard for me to even find out what it is maybe it isn't meant to be.

I know I have a calling but I have to be well to accomplish it. I know the low times help to build the strength. But I don't know why I have to suffer with all this. I know not sweat the little stuff but right now I feel everything. You know like my mom used to say "I got one nerve left and you're on it."