Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.
i have been having worse thoughts, then i had before i started taking it and talking to people don't really help either. people sharing their problems with me, is what got me into this depression in the first place. so being around people in my situation doesn't help... i was born with a caring heart.. but i cannot save the world... i can't even save myself right now.. all i know is i make people feel comfortable enough to share their darkest secretes and i don't know how to make them stop. i know what it's like to "need" somebody to care. i can't do unto others what people do unto me. i feel i have to care because nobody else will...
plus those trying to help, really can't help me. i have a hunger 99% can't do anything about... i am starving for affection, but can't feed it.. neither can anybody i know. i am a 100% giver. i don't know how to take anything, from anybody.. so as you can guess, i am not that attractive to women. i am just their best pal, which honestly sucks.. they just remind me how empty i am inside...
my biggest problem is i do not know how to be selfish... i am a door mat for everybody that crosses my path.. to me winning isn't crossing the line first. i'd rather lose a race to help somebody finish.. thats just the way i have always been.. i am sick of being alone, but i do not know how to take anything from someone. any gal i like, i want to see live a better life then she could ever have with me. so i don't push to get to know them or give them much a chance to know me. i am self destructive in that sense.. i am always thinking of others.. how in the hell do i start thinking of me??
plus those trying to help, really can't help me. i have a hunger 99% can't do anything about... i am starving for affection, but can't feed it.. neither can anybody i know. i am a 100% giver. i don't know how to take anything, from anybody.. so as you can guess, i am not that attractive to women. i am just their best pal, which honestly sucks.. they just remind me how empty i am inside...
my biggest problem is i do not know how to be selfish... i am a door mat for everybody that crosses my path.. to me winning isn't crossing the line first. i'd rather lose a race to help somebody finish.. thats just the way i have always been.. i am sick of being alone, but i do not know how to take anything from someone. any gal i like, i want to see live a better life then she could ever have with me. so i don't push to get to know them or give them much a chance to know me. i am self destructive in that sense.. i am always thinking of others.. how in the hell do i start thinking of me??
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theatre and I are there already. I'm having a very berry tea with crackers, cheese and cherry tomatoes and she's having a joint with some beer and we're both on really comfy recliners on thick pile carpet. we need some help with the decor if anyone is around??
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I'm trying to exercise daily. I was doing fairly well until I sprained my ankle 2 weeks ago but now I'm getting back on the horse. Today I walked over a mile with my arm weights that are about 22lbs total. I was out of shape and it was hard on my arms. I also did my 30 situps. I'm also going to drink a lot of water and try to eat healthy. I do tend to have a sweet tooth but I'm cutting...
and ya TrB, i suffer from NGS.. "Nice Guy Syndrome".. leading cause of alcohol abuse and other drug related problems.. only way a nice guy gets high on something..
Ale, women treat me nice. i don't have self esteem issues.. women love me, just not the way i need one too.. guys get jealous of me all the time, yet theres nothing to be jealous about. i can't get a gal to look at me the way they do them.. it's hard to explain... most people have no clue what i am talking about...