Well, I've recently crawled out of the pits of my last bout with depression...hopefully, for good. For those who don't know me, I've been suffering since I was a teen from it and until I was in my late 20's, didn't know what the hell was wrong with me. I got help, got on meds, got better, went off the meds (stupid), was ok for a while, started getting bad again and before I knew it, there I was at the bottom of that damned pit again. I've spent the past few years or so self medicating with beer and even though I got on Lexapro last summer (when I could no longer function), I wasn't getting the full benefit of the medication because I was drinking a six pack or more every night. I am not an alcoholic...I was simply using it to be happy. Which everyone knows, is a double edged sword with alcohol being a depressant and all. Well, this year, I decided to give up drinking for lent. I have been wanting to cut back but having just one or two beers wasn't happening and lent was kind of an excuse to "dry out". Let me tell you guys...I haven't felt this good in years!! My lexapro is working...REALLY working and I'm getting things accomplished that I haven't had the energy or desire to do in a long time. My anxieties are pretty much non existent (sometimes they kick in but not like before) and I'm not beating myself up mentally over everything. I will never go off meds again...apparently, I'm one of the people that really has to have them and I don't ever want to get that bad again. I still have a lot of work to do but I know that I'm on my way...FINALLY!!
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