feeling extremely lonely. im worried bout my gf, she must have been so scared and lonely too last night - more so than me - in a strange new place with no-one she knows around her. i can't seem to get away from my phone. i keep readin text messages that she sent before and looking at her pictures. each time - reducing me to tears. i didn't realise until yesterday just how much i love her. i would do anything for her, and i mean anything, which is why when i talk to her, i will be strong for her, i will keep myself together. i need to do that for her no matter how much im hurting. she is getting the help she needs and i will stand by her all the way. i suppose it's just a case of adjustin to the situation. she is the most amazing person i have ever met and im the lucky one for having her in my life - she said that she is no longer just doing it for herself. i feel so priviledged to have her, i just hope there's still room for me in her new life, if not, well... if not... it'll be hard but at least i'll know that shes better, right? not sure if i actually believe that but i will. i love her and if that means her new life is better without me i will have to deal with that.

im so sorry guys if im pissing anyone off with my negativity and if i come across as self-absorbed. it's just that this is the only place i feel i can get help for the two of us. but please keep sending supportive messages to her, her name on here is princesslou if any of you reading this did not see my post yesterday. i know she's not guna be on this site for a while but it'll mean so much to her wen she does get on here, knowin that you guys have been thinking of her through this tough time she's found herself in.