Hi, new here but desperate enough to join. Don't really expect anyone to help me, I have dug my own ditch and now I have to lie in it. I am bipolar, tend to be depressed more than anything else. I have an 8 yr. old daughter, a brand new husband, two stepkids, and I am pregnant with twins. It has been very difficult to be completely off of meds, I feel depressed ALOT of the time. Today, and many others, I feel like I don't want these babies, or my stepkids for that matter. It is just too much, one baby is hard enough, I have no idea how I am going to take care of two, along with all these other kids. I don't think I am stable enough of a person to deal with the challenges. I am already freaking out because we don't seem to be able to rent out or sell our condo to move to a bigger place, which we can't afford. So, I am faced with the prospect of 5 kids in a 2 bdrm. condo. May not seem like a big deal, but I am so overwhelmed by the thought of that on top of taking care of newborn twins, I would rather just end it all and not have to deal with any of this s*** anymore! My husband is just tired of my moods, he has started to ignore me when I feel this way. I keep reading other posts that say these feelings are temporary, but I don't see how they are for me, things will only get harder once the twins are born. What am I supposed to do? What would you do? I really am lost.
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