Since I've had my baby I've had horrible thoughts. They come into my mind at random times, usually at night or when I'm on my way to work. I imagine horrible things happening to my baby and me being helpless or my baby being kidnapped and hurt in front of me. Recently I have been thinking about him growing up and committing suicide and me being at the funeral crying over his casket and picturing his smiling face as a baby, and all the years gone by. I'm crying right now as I type this. I feel like I can't get a hold of these horrible thoughts. My doctor put me on zoloft but it hasn't helped. Every day I think of these things. I'm 29, i just had a baby he is 4 months old. I have always thought these things, mostly car accidents in my family, me getting a horrible phone call, the funeral...i play out the entire scenerio. Please help me, I feel like I'm going crazy.
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