Where do i start. When i was 23 my mum died of cancer, she was only 42 herself. That left me the oldest and my 2 younger brothers. I looked after my dad as my youngest brother was in the Gulf War and my other brother lived in Australia. A few years later i got a divorce as the marriage had completley broken down. A year ago my dad died on my 40th birthday and yet again i had to deal with this as my youngest brother couldn't deal with anything and obviously the brother who lived in Australia couldn't come over. 8 months after my dad died, my youngest brother died of a accidental overdose. He was "hooked" on prescription pills. He was 37. There was an inquest. In a few weeks my daughter is off to University. I have remarried to a lovely man but i feel lost, lonely and am tired of being strong. I keep crying all the time. I am so proud of my daughter as she is partially sighted and has worked extremly hard to get to Uni. I am just so tired of feeling like this. I have just also gotten rid of a few toxic friendships as they were never there when i needed them but always had to listen to their problems. So, so tired of people expecting me to sort out all the mess and then keep neglecting me as though i am nothing. Surely i deserve a better life than this?
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