toxic, it is the depression, it will take your feelings away, that is quite normal. You will get through this awful stage, have you spoken to your doctor about this yet?

how does everyone else manage it

theyve put me back on meds, iv had these ones befor and they work well but i dont want 2 be drugged up wen my kids are around x

Toxic, hang in there, you probably know that meds will take some time to work too. I am now in a funk that i cannot get out of too, not sure what to do, so i just keep slogging through the muck and hope it ends soon. Just keep going and do not stop fighting the beast.

i know, its just hard 2 trust meds

Yeah, it's depression. Find what's causing your depression and kick it in the ass. For me, my job and exercise are the biggies. A year ago, I never thought I'd care about anything again! I was SICK. My body felt like lead. I was dizzy, couldn't think. Awful. I started to feel that way a bit recently, and I've vowed never to take another stressful teaching assignment again. Just making up my mind about that helped. But it's not instantaneous. It took me WEEKS to feel better after I stopped working full time and going to the gym. I don't know what it is that makes you blue, but seriously, whatever it is, IT NEEDS TO GO. Do whatever it takes to get rid of it.

Never broken beyond repair hun : ) xxx

its just the depresion things will get better

You're not bothering anyone, we're all here to support you. How can we help?

I feel like that sometimes to, hang in there, it gets better.

i agree...no one is broken beyond repair.
even me. lol :)
xoxo

*hugs* you're not broken beyond repair!

The broken parts make you all the more lovable. No one is perfect, and if they were I don't think I'd want to be in their company (I've been around some that thought they were, and they were no fun at all). I've been broken, and so has anyone I really care about. Honey, you're never broken beyond repair. Come here whenever you need to.
Namaste, Chelle

I've been through a 17 yr depression roller coaster. I am finally seeing the light at the end...i think. finding someone that you can just spill your heart out to helps (even if it is in a private journal). I've never had the courage to do this in real life, but I found that it is easier on here. It does get better, but I know it is hard to see it now. *HUG*

Never bothering anyone. We are all here for eachother.

I truly believe that because of the depression, we are against the meds. I was NEVER going on them again...yeah right. Lets face it- for many of us they keep us functioning and alive.

Please give it a little time. As far as your children seeing you on meds? It is better that then the kids seeing you terribly depressed of worse.

Please hang in there, it does get better. In the mean time talk to us.