hon is it possible to quit the smoking? this way you can get a better job without fear of failing a drug test? If I were you and had to put my problems down on paper and set out to fix my life...that would have to go. If you are addicted reach out to your mom and get help.

Thats just the problem! My mom will sit down and smoke a bowl with me. I don't want you guys to get a bad impression of my mom or judge her because in a lot of ways she's the best mom ever, but that's just how she is about it with me.

hi kimahri,

sorry u are going through so much; i agree; although it is easier said than done (trust me, i've been there) to stop smoking is the best answer right now; it usually takes 3 months to get out of your system, but until then, u could find something to keep u going until u can apply for a better job; good luck, and keep talking to us, we care!

oh, wow,

my godmother was like that, too; would smoke with cindy and i; well, how can she expect u to hold a job if u two are smoking together?

I don't know guys...I just don't know. My whole view of life is warped and I don't even WANT a job, but with that attitude I'll never amount to anything in this world, which makes me wonder why I should even keep trying.

kimahri,

r u still in school? don't give up on yourself; u r too young, and have your whole life ahead of u; u don't have to know all of the answers right now; hell, i don't even know all of the answers for myself, and i'm 36! lol!

No, I dropped out, but I got my GED, and you know what I learned about a GED? It was a waste of money and time because it is useless to me.

*hugs* sorry, hate to suggest this, but is there anyone else you could live with? it may help to get away from her for the smoking and the 'growing up'

as an alcoholic/pothead, i can give you this advise: if you're broke enough and desperate enough, quitting smoking is easy enough. not drinking is more difficult... my advise, hole yourself up in your house for a couple of weeks, down a couple gallons of cranberry juice (watch the cranberry juice, spread it out, it'll give you the shits like no other if you overdo it) and water, stay away from everyone who's smoking, ask your p's to smoke outside/not bring bud around you at all, yeah, you'll be a crabby bitch for a while, but all you gotta do is not drop dirty, get the job, and go back to smoking... always worked for me. yeah, it sucks, but its worth the income if you've got bills to pay. find a good book and just hermit it up till you can pass a piss test and get a job. pots not that hard to quit. it sucks, but easier than any other addiction i've gotten over/tried to get over.

oh, and months to get it outta your sytesm is bs... i smoke all day, every day and its taken me 2 weeks tops to drop clean... you just gotta do it right... oh, and eat low fat foods (thc binds to lipids), and work out a lot, the more you sweat, the more toxins you're getting outta your body

so much of what you have said i have experienced in my life.the drinking the drugs.i am a drummer of 30yrs and lived that life.there is always away out.your ged was not a waste.it was a step,and at your age you have alot more steps to take.you acheived when you got the ged.now set the next goal or step.focous on the positve,even though its hard.i have a journal post i want to share with you:picking up the pieces:

we are all fragmented,broken,crumbling around the edges,or just have come to pieces all together.we leave a little here and a little there or some times just a big pile.it is hard to pick up and put yourself back together ,especially by yourself.no matter your circumstance one thing is true. A friend in need is a friend indeed. now the very nature of life prevents us from being all things to all ppl. as i have read your journals and posts i realized a couple of things. we all need help and the other is the point of this entry.

Friends. one friend is your broom,to gather your pieces, one is the dust pan, to store them in ,one is the board to display your pieces,another to help arrange them,and another is the glue.so see we dont have to be the sole saviour ,but we can be a vital part of the whole process.no matter your role,be satisfied you helped acheive the goal: putting the pieces together. God bless you all.
i hope that makes sense to you and that you get some comfort from it. you have friends and D.S. is a very large place.this is my firt time in this community and i think i like it here.

First off if your parents are considering throwing you out because you don't have a job, that makes them heartless considering what time of year it is. It is the season to show good will toward man and family. Not decide to throw someone out and make them homeless. I understand what you are going through in ever way. I used to do drugs a lot. I did more inhalants than anything, but I was able to quit. You can too, if you just put your mind to it. As far as drinking, I was horrible in that field. I still am to a point, but again it comes to how bad you want to stop. You have to will yourself or try to seek therapy. I know it is an often repeated phrase, but you can do that as well. You can change if you want to. I believe you just need someone or something to help motivate that change in you.

I will keep you in my prayers.

I dont know what is wrong with me...why don't I want to quit drinking and smoking? It makes my life so much better in ways, and ruins it in others. I can't understand why I want to keep doing the shit....but its like I don't want to change or give up my habits....its so hard to understand to me....why can't I just quit?

drugs and alcohol numb you to the real world,i struggle with both every day of my life. find the problem that leads you to drink and drugs.sure it a blast but there is something deeper

my whole life is why I drink and smoke...everything is miserable unless I do smoke/drink, and it only lasts a little bit. I am in a horrible position now, no job, but have to have one, will NOT work at fast food again, anything above fast food requires a piss test...have about a week to find another job before I'm out...can't get clean in a week...I'm screwed....guess it doesn't matter though.