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this is a public message to batteredandbruised.
okay dont mean to preach but look at this. my sister and i got beat up by our parents for anything at all. was totally shit. i got beat unconscious when i was three years old- it was for playing with the wrong toy. mum made me and my sister stop eating, i got addicted to diet pills, my sister and i are suicidal, she tried to end it in summer, i tried so so many times, first time i was like 12. my mum tries to kill herself, blames us. whenever i go home i get beat up and mum tells me im fat and ugly etc. mum beat my sister up last week for "not revising enough".
i get flashbacks now, fucking great ones that knock me for six. i have issues with my self image, i get scared of people, i dont speak to guys ever (actually maridon on here is the only guy i ever talked more than one sentence to that wasnt just small talk). i feel so rejected and shit and i know my sister does too as shes trapped in taht fucking house.
im now trying to fight to foster my sister, i will look after her and care for her and show her love so she doesnt kill herself and so that she has a life. shes sleeping around and is drunk all the time, smokes shit and stuff. means i got to stand up in court and tell people what happened to us and watch my mum and dad go to jail. dad beats mum up as well so hes a cunt. he beat her unconscious. lots. has done since i was a tiny. i had to pull him off her all the time shed be lying there unconscious and hed still be going. seriously shit situation.
i feel very very depressed. i feel shit.
you seriously think i should go kill MYSELF and just leave my sister? i would love to kill myself. but i couldnt be so selfish. im sacrificing everything you have to sacrifice, uni and everything i have. uni friends i have here... everything. my parents.... fucking everything. you do it because you love someone and you want to help and because you dont have to be selfish.
go the the hospital. please. and help your sister avoid being in that shit situation. anyway how do you know it hasnt happened already?
you got to do something.
okay dont mean to preach but look at this. my sister and i got beat up by our parents for anything at all. was totally shit. i got beat unconscious when i was three years old- it was for playing with the wrong toy. mum made me and my sister stop eating, i got addicted to diet pills, my sister and i are suicidal, she tried to end it in summer, i tried so so many times, first time i was like 12. my mum tries to kill herself, blames us. whenever i go home i get beat up and mum tells me im fat and ugly etc. mum beat my sister up last week for "not revising enough".
i get flashbacks now, fucking great ones that knock me for six. i have issues with my self image, i get scared of people, i dont speak to guys ever (actually maridon on here is the only guy i ever talked more than one sentence to that wasnt just small talk). i feel so rejected and shit and i know my sister does too as shes trapped in taht fucking house.
im now trying to fight to foster my sister, i will look after her and care for her and show her love so she doesnt kill herself and so that she has a life. shes sleeping around and is drunk all the time, smokes shit and stuff. means i got to stand up in court and tell people what happened to us and watch my mum and dad go to jail. dad beats mum up as well so hes a cunt. he beat her unconscious. lots. has done since i was a tiny. i had to pull him off her all the time shed be lying there unconscious and hed still be going. seriously shit situation.
i feel very very depressed. i feel shit.
you seriously think i should go kill MYSELF and just leave my sister? i would love to kill myself. but i couldnt be so selfish. im sacrificing everything you have to sacrifice, uni and everything i have. uni friends i have here... everything. my parents.... fucking everything. you do it because you love someone and you want to help and because you dont have to be selfish.
go the the hospital. please. and help your sister avoid being in that shit situation. anyway how do you know it hasnt happened already?
you got to do something.
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I have been here before, a long long time ago and now I am back.Forgive me for not just saying what I want to say,even under a triple dose of antidepressants it is still raw and seeping and I am hesitant at revealing it as at least under the bandages around my heart I don,t have to look at how raw and wounded.My child was cleaved from my heart by his own actions. my child of ten,turning eleven...
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theatre and I are there already. I'm having a very berry tea with crackers, cheese and cherry tomatoes and she's having a joint with some beer and we're both on really comfy recliners on thick pile carpet. we need some help with the decor if anyone is around??
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I'm thinking about going in but i'm way too scared to try and face them at the moment
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