As you can see i'm in a slummp i'm depress, I've done put on a facade for so long I dont even reconize myself anymore the only person that ever see the real me is my daughter. she keeps me going, I have to be real with her, I dont have to put on a front with her but, with my family, friends and associates, they will get the fake me all the time, they will never get the chance to hurt me again, never. the closer it gets to my birthday (which is in about 1wk) the more pity partys i'll probaly have. from the time i was 12 until now I've only had 2 days You can count on your fingers 2 days that i came remember that i was truly happy 1 the day I was save ( which I was weak and I allow people take the enjoyment out of that) 2 the day my daughter was born. thats all peeps just 2 days, i'll be 41 in a week you do the math. great life I have had rigth. to all those that have had a better life then me i'm happy for you keep on enjoy it
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