today is not good day , today i'm having a pity party, my depression has kick once again negative thoughts get in my head and it impossible to get them out, my family really stresses me , I dont need their negative thoughts. I have them already, heard them all my life , you're no good, you're evil , you're stupid etc,etc, it's been drill in my head for so many years that it's hard to convince myself that i'm not all those things, I absolutely trust noone, I have very little patience ,my nerves are on the edge i feel like i'm going to explode any minute now, i'm so frustrated i could scream, i'm always on the alert, so there , i vented i feel a little better
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