I am at a point were I feel immobile when it comes to helping my situation. I can go over in my head what I need to do to change my life, but day after day I do the same routine refusing to jumpstart a recovery. Things like going to the gym in my complex or attending social events. Starting conversations with strangers or engaging co-workers instead of isolating. It all seems so exhausting and useless. These are things that I've tried before and failed at. I seem to be waiting on a new fix. So I sit at my computer as the hours go by. I don't know why I wrote this here instead of the journal, maybe it took too much effort to click onto a new page. *sigh*
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