Hi Sfay,

I feel a lot of that too. I am taking it minute by minute. Some minutes I win, some I almost didn't get through. Can someone share the secret? <3

Sending you warm wishes in the meantime.

Sfay,

I'm so sorry for how overwhelmed you feel. It must be very very tough.

May I suggest that you contact a doctor and attempt to address 1 or 2 issues initially? When I'm depressed everything looks completely insurmountable. Maybe a professional can help start you on your journey toward better health.

I hope you find solace in knowing others care about you.

Hi sfay, you are fluctuating between extreme highs and extreme lows. That is, you are fluctuating between mania and depression. You may have bipolar disorder, which your doctors can treat by prescribing anticonvulsants, antipsychotics or antidepressants such as SSRIs. The best thing to do is to see your family doctor and describe the feelings that you have been having to the doctor. Keep a diary and record your emotions so your doctor can diagnose you with the appropriate condition in order to provide treatment. Take care, and hope that everything goes well for you.

thankyou, but i dont think i have bipolar disorder because the highs and lows usually happen for longer periods of time, which isnt me

Thank you for reaching out and sharing. I can relate to those feelings. Are you being treated for depression? Part of depression is chemical and the other is how we cope and deal with things. After working with a healthy life coach, I learned I had to heal from the inside out and that began with me learning to love and accept who I am. I had to speak a lot of positive things over myself. Two activities that really work with this are: 557 deep breathing and a gratitude journal. The 557 breathing technique is take 5 deep breaths in while thinking good thoughts about yourself like I matter, I am special, I am strong and then hold the breaths for the count of 7 focusing on those words about yourself, then let out the breath slowly for 5 seconds letting go of any anxious, self-defeating, unhealthy thoughts. I do this one to three times a sitting. The gratitude journal is writing down something good every morning and night something that went well in the day, or something I appreciate about myself. Taking our focus off of the negative thoughts and depression and focusing on positive uplifting things really helps. What you think is what you believe. So thinking uplifting things you believe those things but the reverse is true - thinking negative self-defeating things, you will believe those. I will be praying for you. Feel free to pm me if you'd like to chat. Hugs and God Bless

sfay, the best person to treat you is your doctor. We provide you love and support on DS, but we cannot treat nor diagnose you. It is not good to approach a support forum to request for comparisons of symptoms to diagnose yourself. Doctor Google is not a good place to obtain information to diagnose yourself either. As caring2018 has described, depression constitutes a chemical imbalance in the brain, and your coping capacity in various emotionally provoking situations. Not only you will need medications for your mental illness, but you may need psychotherapy as well. Your doctor will help you to access all of these health services.

i understand but thats just not available to me right now, i also was not looking to be diagnosed i was only looking for support or advice, im very young and still live with my parents, i cant just march up to my parents and ask them to take me to a mental health professional, one we are not rich like that and diagnoses here cost around 3-5k, for my parents to actually take me that would require me telling them things i dont have enough strength to, im sorry, its just not as accessible for some people as it miight be for you

I am sorry to hear of your financial difficulties in obtaining help for your medical conditions. Are you in the US, or outside of the US? If you are in the US, there are free medical clinics that you can attend to obtain help for medical conditions, especially during the COVID epidemics. The government has encouraged people who develop mental illness to obtain medical care, and new (and free) clinics/hotlines are opened for people affected to access to medical care and advice.

Thanks for your concern, I live in Canada and yes they are offering free services, the best I could find was a therapist, I am still scheduling an appointment with them and they offer different programs but I can’t take meds and I don’t plan on ever doing that

Thank you for sharing. My apologies for this late reply. It is good that you are finding a Therapist, as when things look hopeless from Depression and Anxiety, it is good to know people (trained professionals) are out there to help you. Please do continue to vent and share here. We live it, so we can relate to much, but never exactly all, of what you are enduring. A Therapist can find ways to better focus, and remove much of the confusion, and to make sure you know that you have nothing to be ashamed of, as alternatives to medication. Never shame in needing medication, as many do. It is your respected choice always, and none should deny that. It is definitely more to talk over with your Therapist. Often Mental Illness doesn't go away, but it is finding ways to live with it much better, so it is a smaller part of us, and not what guides our days and nights. Thank you. God Bless.

How are things going? I have been praying for you. Hugs