last night on the way home after I picked my wife up from work we got into a what should\'ve been a minor disagreement. It got out of control and I just got so angry that I yelled from my car at a couple of crazy drunk club guys who had stopped their cars in the middle of the road. They came after us, one of them slammed on the brakes in front of us and the other rammed our back bumber. the guy in the front jumped out of his car and bashed the driver\'s side window in with his fist. luckily, I was able to speed away and I only had a minor cut on my head. But now the real problems are here. My wife started sobbing and I can tell she\'s really distressed. I am too. my anger is really getting out of hand, and it\'s ruining my/our life. this in the third or fourth time since moving to philadelphia that I\'ve gotten beat up. If I hadn\'t been able to pull away I certainly would be in the hospital or dead. I already promised my wife that I would never do anything remotely like this again, that I would never yell anything from my car again and that I would do anything in my power to control my rage. certainly she needs time, but the real issue is that I have real problems controlling my anger. I feel so stupid, selfish and out-of-control. my mind is racing and I am playing out the different worse things that could\'ve happened last night over and over again. what would they have done to my wife and me? I don\'t know what to do!
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