My ex girlfriend showed me this site when we first started dating when i was so deep into depression and smashing painkillers bad and doing crystal once or twice a week. That was all last year and it feels like a bad dream. Since then my life was looking up unt'ill well...now. My girlfreind was EVERYTHING to me. Such a sweetheart, so slefles and loving. She loved me for how I was at the time and I can truly say, id still be in jail or dead right now if it wasn't for her, she was the ONLY support I got, my family just ignores me as a "problem" child. Things where starting to get better, untill the problems started agin. She slept with one of my best friends, and now there dating in a seemingly happy relationship and I'm still in shock basically. (This kid is DIRTY, sleeps with any girl he can get), I see my ex as one of the most beautiful people that have ever existed in my life and she screwing some degenerate like that. Now on top of all that my mom who I could write all day about how messed in the head she is, finds me like everyday and brings me down calling me a drug addict and im druging her and everyone's against her, the list gose on and on. I'm losing my mind again, im slipping faster then I can process. I try everyday to get up get go on the 2hr trip busing to get my methadone, go to school, I have barely enough money to survive right now. I need help, and the only person that was there for me is fucking my friend. I know im a hairs bredth away from getting a rig and watching all my problems disappear into my arm.....
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