it seems like the harder I fight the harder it is to keep pushing forward. I have been clinically depressed for many years and have been trying hard to battle this with and without medication. I fought really hard with it earlier this year and into last year when my boyfriend broke my heart. and by the grace of god I met a wonderful man and have been with him ever since. with stresses at work and on the homefront I found that I had a relapse of my GAD. I was having panic attacks on a daily bases, I was able to get back on my meds and was doing sooo much better. and again another set back, I have since been very ill. it has not yet been diagnosed by my doctors. I have now found myself on this rollercoaster ride of feeling good and up beat to ok and nauseated, to bad and vomiting. this has been going on now for almost 2 months. I can't take my meds because of the vomiting, so now I am getting depressed again. I don't want to put my boyfriend through this, I can't bare to loose him, he is my strength. but I am afraid that he is going to get tired of my constant ups and downs. I just don't know where to go from here. I feel so alone.
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