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OK, so I thought it was a good idea for me to walk away. I was wrong, I admit it. I can't even believe I made a post like that....stupid. God, I know I sounded like a drama queen, the very thing I loathe most. I am embarrassed.
There was one reason (of many) I won't go into that led me to the decision to go but I have decided to suck that up and deal with it. I can't run away every time something becomes uncomfortable. That's bullshit.
I thought by doing what I am doing tomorrow, it would garner me some support at home, thus helping me be away from here....WRONG....I have ZERO support here, no matter what I try to do, I always get a negative thrown at me. Fuck it. I seriously don't know why I am even bothering with going.
I'll be honest, I've been more or less under the influence of something or another since making my drama queen "I'm leaving for awhile" post on Saturday (I think?). Last night was bad. To be honest I don't remember most of it. I started to take pills and I stopped before I went too far, but I did take enough to put me in a state, and not a good one. I know I talked to one person on the phone, maybe another, I can't quite remember. I had told people I only took two....I had forgotten about the others I took until I counted today. Oops.
Anyways, forgive me for my bullshit please, anyone who wants to go ahead and blow me shit, go for it. It'll be water off a ducks back.
I have decided I need to seriously prune my list here...not because I don't like people, I just need to be able to keep it manageable ...I think that has been one of my stressors, not wanting to hurt anyones feelings but I have to do what's best for me right now.
Thanks
There was one reason (of many) I won't go into that led me to the decision to go but I have decided to suck that up and deal with it. I can't run away every time something becomes uncomfortable. That's bullshit.
I thought by doing what I am doing tomorrow, it would garner me some support at home, thus helping me be away from here....WRONG....I have ZERO support here, no matter what I try to do, I always get a negative thrown at me. Fuck it. I seriously don't know why I am even bothering with going.
I'll be honest, I've been more or less under the influence of something or another since making my drama queen "I'm leaving for awhile" post on Saturday (I think?). Last night was bad. To be honest I don't remember most of it. I started to take pills and I stopped before I went too far, but I did take enough to put me in a state, and not a good one. I know I talked to one person on the phone, maybe another, I can't quite remember. I had told people I only took two....I had forgotten about the others I took until I counted today. Oops.
Anyways, forgive me for my bullshit please, anyone who wants to go ahead and blow me shit, go for it. It'll be water off a ducks back.
I have decided I need to seriously prune my list here...not because I don't like people, I just need to be able to keep it manageable ...I think that has been one of my stressors, not wanting to hurt anyones feelings but I have to do what's best for me right now.
Thanks
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A friend sent this to me..As far as I can see, grief will never truly end.It may become softer overtime, more gentleand some days will feel sharp.But grief will last as long as Love does - ForeverIt's simply the way the absence of your loved onemanifests in your heart. A deep longing accompaniedby the deepest Love some days. The heavy fog mayreturn and the next day, it may recede.Once again, it's...
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Today is my 25th birthday, to my somewhat lack of surprise I can see already no one really seems to care. I've always been the kinda person to make sure that everyone I Care about feels appreciated and knew somebody had their back. I can count 4 times this year when I Went out of my way to make sure a "friend" felt good on their birthday, especially if they got left hanging. Its early in the...
I am very worried about you honey
Your friends here know how hard you have tried to find services where you are. Now that there is a potential for help...don't let anyone blow smoke up your ass and discourage you. Please go to your appointments and don't let anyone or anything stop you.
(((((((((((((tight hugs)))))))))))))))
I'm so glad.
I know what you mean about friends lists, and the dumb thing is it sometimes keeps me awake at night worrying about how I'm going to get through everyone. I won't be even slightly more than a bit whistfully accepting if you need to cut me. It's not like we can't still see what we're getting up to. But if you keep me, that'll be lovely too.
Hugs.