well, the past few days have been way up, and way down for me and it fuckin sucks! i hate my mother sometimes for passing her bipolar genes on to me, but oh well. today was the first great day in so long i nearly had a heart attack. as some of you know, its tax season, well, i filed my taxes like last week and i already knew i wasnt going to get anything back, which was severely depressing at the time. anyway, the lady said that i will be getting a check in the mail at their main office in 8 to 15 days or whatever, but the day before yesterday i had gotten a letter in the mail saying that all of my check had been used for my government debt, and i wouldnt be getting a check, i wasnt surprised cause i already knew it was going to happen. So today i was just about to crawl into bed when my voice mail alert went off on my cell phone, i was like oook, when i checked it a woman told me she was from "jackson and hewitt tax services" and i needed to call them back. it took everything i had to NOT call them because i knew it was going to be bad news either way. so i dialed my voicemail number and called the lady back, i had asked what they wanted from me and why they called, well, the lady politely told me there was a check waiting there for me, lol, at first i got real excited cause i really needed the money, but then after the excitement was nervousness because then i thought maybe it was just a rejection letter, or a mix-up knowing how bad my luck was. i drove up to the tax place (on an empty gas tank mind you) got out and went inside, sure enough there was a check just for me waiting on the counter!!! once i picked up my check, i got into my car and i sat there and cried, cried at the thought of my luck finally changing, after that moment i kept thanking god and how grateful i am to have such wonderful things in my life. it goes to show ya that ANYTHING is possible!!!!! i remember sitting in my room all depressed wondering what i was going to do about getting gas to make it to work, and how i was going to be able to eat with no money, you bet you sweet fucking ass there is someone up there watching us all.
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