Hi yall. i am sorry that i am being so very needy right now. i am also sorry that i am coming off irrational as well. i understand what you all are saying and it is very good and solid advice. the problem is that really, honestly, deep down i dont think that i can actually ask for the proper help cuz i dont know what it is that is wrong. i am also all out of understanding from the folks around me in real life. they want me to just be normal and to stop "it" and i cant do that. i am thinking and feeling what i am thinking and feeling and that is all. im sorry that i am failing to do what you all are asking of me. i dont want you all to be angry at me and hate me and i am sorry that i have been a problem and will try to not be one. thanks for helping me out when you did, however. i am not sure any of this makes any sense at all i just want folks to stop being mad at me or whatever.
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