Depression Support Group

Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.

20,222 Members
158,859 Posts
5 Online
Mental Health
/ Depression Support Group

Oh god please help me!!!

deleted_user
deleted_user
If I could just borrow a few people from the arguments for a second, I need some real help...every time I begin to feel a little better, something always comes to wipe it out. Today, I was doing ok and then I went to work, where the head manager strong armed me into driving almost 2 hours away tomorrow afternoon, just to work a 6 hour shift and then drive all the way back and not get anything for it. No extra pay, nothing. Why does this always happen to me? I don't want to go all the way up there and work at this store with people and equipment I've never seen before. I just don't think I can do it....I am having a panic attack. On top of that I have to go to my grandparents farm in the morning to cut up a tree that fell over and deal with them and it's too much on my plate at once and I'm really thinking about doing something crazy tonight....I have several ways to fix this problem, right here in my room. Have 2 guns right next to me, a bottle of hydrocodone pills to OD on, a belt and a good high metal hook to drop from....and I am serious. What can I do you guys? I can't go to the hospital...can't call 911....nothing.....I'm so screwed....dammit I hate my life more than anything you could think of..
deleted_user
deleted_user
You talk to us. Slow down man. They're just tools you don't have to use them. If you won't call someone then stay here with us. Please talk to me.
deleted_user
deleted_user
Take a deep breath and talk to us. We're here for you.
deleted_user
deleted_user
why can't you go to the hospital? Please hang on, we love you
deleted_user
deleted_user
Is there a friend or family member you trust that you can call to be with you?

I know going to the hospital is a scary proposition, but you shouldn't be alone.
deleted_user
deleted_user
Kim, please hun, don't do that. You know I care about you as well as many here do.

Maybe the mgr felt you were the best one for the job.
starfish
starfish
kim, thanks, I don't want to argue anyway....you CAN call for help. there are 1800#s at the bottom of every DS page in the blue area, there is a link.

If you just want to talk to us, that's fine, but please stay with us so we don't worry, OK???
deleted_user
deleted_user
Kim doesn't have insurance.
deleted_user
deleted_user
please dont do kill yourself
deleted_user
deleted_user
I can't call anybody or go anywhere, due to my father who's in the next room, which has clear visibility to the door. He's not even asleep, and he'd catch me leaving, and I'd never make it, he'd get me before I could actually be gone. Can't use the phone, cuz I'm supposed to be asleep, and it will cause another argument, which will probably be worse than the one earlier, which will cause me to feel even more determined to end my life.
deleted_user
deleted_user
Take a few deep breaths. Do you have a pill bottle beside the hydrocodone you take for anxiety? Take the recommended dose and try to relax. Obviously your boss has more faith in you than you have for yourself. You would not be sent if he or she did not feel that you would do a good job. trust me, you fail then they fail as well. As far as your grandparents go...maybe you could call and say that you will be there on sunday. explain that you have to travel for work and you will be too tired. People depend on you to get the job done. Find some inner power and strength knowing that you are reliable and the first they think of when things need to get done. Dont do anything foolish...stay on here and talk it out.
ZAZAS
ZAZAS
hey, lets try this, will you put the guns, hook and pills away for a little while, and make a promise that you just won't kill yourself tonight. We've talked before, I know how you hated working on your grandparents farm, and then, you didn't even have a car to drive, so you've come a long way. Your working and driving, so very proud of you.

As far as the work, yeah, that was wrong, you should be compensated for travel time. Hey, rather than kill yourself over it, just miss work, call in sick if you have too, probably to much pressure to have a employee relations discussion right now.

Look, just promise you won't kill your self today. Can you do that?
deleted_user
deleted_user
Stay here then. There's no rush, no pressure just talk. At least try this out before going there, man. Honestly it might just help. That's what you came for right?
deleted_user
deleted_user
No job is worth killing your self over! Just say no. Just quit. Anything. Tell your grandparents you'll do it next week. But, please, please stay with us!!
sja
sja
Hey kim, please don't hurt yourself. we all care about you here.
deleted_user
deleted_user
hey kim ... from all the responses you can see you don't need to go anywhere ... just hang with us ... put away the pills, the guns, the belt, etc.

you've reached out to us, and we're reaching back to you ... let us be your anchor until you can be an anchor for yourself
Posts You May Be Interested In
  • irishwriter

    come unwind in the bp lounge

    Posted by: irishwriter
    Last Reply: irishwriter
    7916
    theatre and I are there already. I'm having a very berry tea with crackers, cheese and cherry tomatoes and she's having a joint with some beer and we're both on really comfy recliners on thick pile carpet. we need some help with the decor if anyone is around??
  • Rizen

    Walk a Day

    Posted by: Rizen
    Last Reply: mujicaptsd
    1896
    I'm trying to exercise daily. I was doing fairly well until I sprained my ankle 2 weeks ago but now I'm getting back on the horse. Today I walked over a mile with my arm weights that are about 22lbs total. I was out of shape and it was hard on my arms. I also did my 30 situps. I'm also going to drink a lot of water and try to eat healthy. I do tend to have a sweet tooth but I'm cutting...