Idk what I am right now, am I numb, overwhelmed, shattered, lost, or just a terrible person, I have no idea. I am hurting, because of so much right now :( But I cant cry. I feel like I have crawled back in a shell to all that I have been really close to. Im scared to even think, or I will break down. I have to go see my doc on fri, because I chose not to go yesterday, last time I went, she wanted to admit me, and she told me if I didnt cut, and have suiicdal thoughts between then and my next visit, she would reconsider it. I dont know what is going to happen and I am terrified. I cant sleep, I cant eat. I cant cry. I dont want to do a damn thing, and i have had the worst possible headache for over 24 hrs now :( I hate this so much, I dont know what to do, or how to feel right now:(
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