So i went to the dr. today because for years i knew I had to be on the verge of depression. I have lost someone close to me every year since 1998. One being my best friend. I also had many relationship disasters, two kids, college, medical problems, ect. I finally decided to see help when i found myself resisting the urge to get drunk. I dont drink!!. Also, I stopped answering my phone when friends call, i find it hard to stay awake during the day, i get very aggitated easily, and force myself to spend time with my kids. I dont want too. I just want to sleep or have "me" time. I would get mad at them if they asked me to play..like i had something more important to do..like check e-mail. I cry constantly. Its just not me. Im not the same person i was a few years ago. I was the happy person in the group who u always wanted to smack because they were too perky. Always smiling. I also started picking at my face 2yrs ago..its almost like OCD now. I cant leave the bathroom until ive done it. My dr. told me today I have a Severe case of depression and is waiting til Monday (when i see my OB/GYN) to make sure im not preggers to give me medication. Ive been having irregular cycles. So..now what do i do? The one person I told about today..made me feel like crap..they said they are trying to understand ..but dont..they went on about how they are under stress too and dont have a prob..so who do u turn to? How do u get better? How do u get through ur days?
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