I was feeling very well earlier today. Now I am down some. The up and down effect of my illness. I do have some happiness or maybe just a feeling of satisfaction. I hired a handyman to do some dry wall work, paint, and some plumbing. This afternoon he finished up a bunch of little things in my fixer upper condo that I bought last December. It was scary turning over this work. I have always strongly figured that if I want it done right do it myself. I installed decorative flooring for 25 years. I know how to do most things. My medical condition makes it most difficult to a lot of things because of chronic severe pain. My God put a ethical hard working young man (about 38 or so) in my path. Everything looks so great. It is starting to look like a real home. I took out a small loan. I will get it paid off in half the time of the loan. When I do I will do another loan and buy some nice used or new furniture, as long as it is nice. Then I will get a third loan to finish the rest of my home and then once again to furnish my bedroom and computer room. I find happiness in material things; I will take happiness wherever I can find it. Satisfaction and depression in one nut`. You know, squirrels like me.

RICHARD