I don't know what to do anymore. I lost my girlfriend who I was sure would be with me forever, I had to quit my job because I had nowhere to go but my parents house half the state away, my car is still up north, and even if I had it I've got no license to drive it. My parents life out in the country and there is nowhere for me to go for a job or support. My anxiety is unbearable, I'm lucky if an hour passes without thinking of taking my own life. My girlfriend was my best friend, and I don't really have anyone else. My parents don't understand, they just keep telling me i need to be tough. I can't handle this, I don't know what to do, it all seems so hopeless, I feel worthless. Drugs and alcohol have ruined everything for me time and again, but I'm on the verge of turning back to them again, even though they just cost me this relationship and will get me kicked out of my parents house. I can't eat or sleep much, I don't even want to get up to go to the bathroom. Everything reminds me of her, and I don't know what to do, I've been in some spots before, but this is the worst.
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