i sit here unable to even think of what to write or how to really feel. i am to the point where i am so numb and dead inside. i have nothing left anymore. i do all i can for my family and those that i love more then anything but its reached a paoint where it isnt enough. im not enough. i dont know what to do i dont even know how to feel anymore. its like i just walk around on auto and due what needs to be done. i tired of the bad man hurting me and stacie. they say a person can only handle so much in their life before they just cant do it anymore. well im there i no longer wanna fight. i will cause i have made promises that i wont ever break but i dont want to. i can see it every time i close my eyes and its now to the point where i see it even with my eyes open. yet im sure this is all me just whining and complaining.
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