My boyfriend broke up with me this past friday. It was very sudden and I am beyond crushed. When he told me I started hurting myself because I dont feel like I have a reason to live anymore. I had to call my friends to come get me, and he had to hide all the knifes in the house to keep me safe till I got there. When we were getting ready to leave I had my car key in my hand and I started to dig it into my leg so my boyfriend had to restrain me and take the key away. Ever since then I have felt so hopeless and I feel as if I have no reason to really go on anymore. Everything around me reminds me of him, and I dont think I can handle the pain. I talked to him yesterday and begged for another chance, but he said no because he didnt love me like that anymore, I was so crushed. So now I am blaming myself for everything and the reason why we broke up. this is all just so hard to deal with. When he told me that he just wasnt happy anymore, I couldnt help but blame myself...how could I love someone so much and make them so unhappy...I just dont understand. I just want the pain to go away.
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