daughter dying with either aids or cancer. has to be one or the other, since she has lost 70 pounds in the last 6 months. she will not go to the doctor, so i can only guess. ex boyfriend of 18 years having an affair and in the mountains tonight shacked up for the next three days with his new girlfriend. . broken heart from that little tidbit. abandoned and left with the care of three rescued bichons that i am devoted to.. a job i hate with a passion but have no choice since i have to keep a roof over my dogs heads. depression that has hit me like a ton of bricks and is the worst in the last 20 years. other than all this i am breathing air at the moment.... existing on this planet where there seems to me to be no loyalty and faithfulness. love seems like science fiction to me... can't die and can't stand to live... praying and trying to get past this... oh God i just want to go to sleep.........
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