Okay,,,I am happy. Truly happy for the first time in my life maybe. (More in my journal) Yet I cannot just let myself be happy...I keep trying to find flaws and create drama where there is none. Very Odd. I knew 'happy' was not my normal state, but I am reacting very strangely to it...Fear and doubt. I am also uncomfortable with it...I know it sounds strange...Or does it???? Any thoughts?? I would greatly appreciate it. Love, Michele.
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