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Hey yall, i need some positive re-enforcement and not alarm. I dont want to talk directly to the therapist person because I fell that no matter how I frame this, she will freak. I wont talk to folks here cuz they are already fed up enough with me and probably dont want to hear another word of whining from me. So, Ive decided to talk to you all. I dont so much as have a plan, but I am convinced that I am going to do something to myself some time soon. I cant respond to this feeling right now because im not sure that its real. I know that probably sounds strange but thats where it is at. My mind keeps telling me that I need to act soon. Yesterday I planned to come home, swallow down my pills and not wake up. Instead, I got onto that site and read what was going on and decided to just chill. But the feeling has not passed. The wave was less most of the day but right now it is mounting. I am writing because I really cant have this now. My nephew is visiting and I dont want to mess up with him around. It would suck. I dont want anyone to know what I am feeling and I need to vent or something. Well thats all.
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theatre and I are there already. I'm having a very berry tea with crackers, cheese and cherry tomatoes and she's having a joint with some beer and we're both on really comfy recliners on thick pile carpet. we need some help with the decor if anyone is around??
You need to be careful, because if your feelings are numb, you may not recognize how bad a shape you are really in.
And if you are holding off getting help becuase your nephew is there, that is not a good reason if you really need help, and it sounds like you do.
Yesterday you had a plan, and the feelings are still there today, which means this is not just a passing thing, but coming back again.
You need to call 911, go to your nearest ER, or call a 1-800#. THat should be listed in your telephone book, or there is a link in the blue area at the bottom of every DS page.
You are welcome to talk here, but you need to get help.
1). Are you the one watching your nephew, if he is young?
2) Have you felt this way before, or tried to commit suicide before?
You need to keep fighting those voices in your head. They mean you harm not good. You arent a burden to anyone here and noone is tired of talking to you. You matter here in this world and obviously you matter to your nephew. Do not make him sad for the rest of his life. Do not make those in your life wonder why they lost you and why they could not help you. You need to go back to your doctor and tell him that the meds he has you on are not working. There are meds out there to help get these voices to stop and to make you feel better. I mean it, just hang on and see your doctor. Better days are ahead of you.
Remember that you and your life is valuable and suicide is a permanent, irreversible action. You're posting here, I suspect, because you're afraid your going to go through with it. Suicidal thoughts and plans are a sign that your brain is not functioning normally. You need someone to help you.
I think you need to mention this to your therapist now. Your therapist should not freak, but probably will try to get you admitted into a hospital so that you won't do what you and she are afraid you will do. It's okay to let someone else take care of you. We all need that sometimes. And, admitting that you need help is not screwing up, its actually a healthy step. Someday your nephew and your family will understand what your going through.