I have had this depression since I was 7 or 8 yrs. old and back then I knew that I sort of differant and didn't know I had that alcoholic personality. I always felt sad and sort of lost in life and I have been on many anti-depressants and honestly I don't believe in them anymore and what I hear on tv about them I don't think I;ll ever take them again. My drinking over the yrs. has brought on alot of my troubles and not having God first in my life has really messed up me inside. Now I am getting in church, not drinking, eating better foods, and excerzizng because I know it will help me with my depression and the past 2 wks. I do feel a whole lot better. Also positive affirmations and being grateful for what I do have. I am trying to change my life because I wasted 3o some yrs. of it and I am 49yrs. old now so please to all the young people out there don't mess yourself up with drugs/booze and talk out your feelings because bottling them up like I did back then wasn't good. I couldn't talk to my parents because they didn't want to hear people's troubles and they would get mad alot so I kept things in alot. I'm tired of wasting my life there is a better life ahead and I will not give up.
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