im in a band with 4 other guys. and every show i hear them talkin about all the hot girls there and see them hittin on them and tryin to hook up with them and then hearin them say how how they are, how they'd do that chick, or wanna bang this other chick. it kinda makes me not even feel like a girl. so im not the conventional stock beautiful girl. and i dont wear tight jeans and low cut shirts and have long bleached hair and wear too much makeup...why does that make me not worth a guys time? im sorry for having self esteem and not needing to expose every possible inch of my body in public. and im sorry i know how to properly apply makeup so i dont look like a hoebag. it just sucks that people who are themselves have to work twice as hard to get past the norm. and its really got me down tonight.
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