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Sorry, it's long. If it inspires just one...for you...
I have made a connection!
My birthdays were times when the family got together, got drunk and fought.
Christmas was about things and stuff! Tons of stuff. No connections between us. No memory making. No caroling. No chestnuts roasting in an open fire.
It was more like
"Grandma ran over a reindeer.
Grandpa called my mother every name in the book.
Daddy tried to help, by feeding mama,
mama grew to the size of a pastry cook".
I was given the message deeply that I didn't deserve what I had and I didn't deserve what I needed.
My night terrors were spent alone at the top of the stairs sweating and hyperventilating. It NEVER occurred to me to run to a parent for arms to hold.
I graduated early and did not return for the graduation rituals and celebrations. I did not have baby showers for either pregnancies. I never had a birthday anything for many many years.
No Valentine Day. Never married.
The connection is this:
My deepest belief is that I do not deserve to have a family that creates loving holiday rituals and celebrations for each other.
Rather than fret and morn the lost years and do my annual depression. I am going to "post it note" all over my home a new thought that I am going to get deep into my being...
It is this:
I deserve to have enjoyable holidays and celebrations with my loved ones. I can receive love and gifts as well as give freely to others.
WOW!
I have made a connection!
My birthdays were times when the family got together, got drunk and fought.
Christmas was about things and stuff! Tons of stuff. No connections between us. No memory making. No caroling. No chestnuts roasting in an open fire.
It was more like
"Grandma ran over a reindeer.
Grandpa called my mother every name in the book.
Daddy tried to help, by feeding mama,
mama grew to the size of a pastry cook".
I was given the message deeply that I didn't deserve what I had and I didn't deserve what I needed.
My night terrors were spent alone at the top of the stairs sweating and hyperventilating. It NEVER occurred to me to run to a parent for arms to hold.
I graduated early and did not return for the graduation rituals and celebrations. I did not have baby showers for either pregnancies. I never had a birthday anything for many many years.
No Valentine Day. Never married.
The connection is this:
My deepest belief is that I do not deserve to have a family that creates loving holiday rituals and celebrations for each other.
Rather than fret and morn the lost years and do my annual depression. I am going to "post it note" all over my home a new thought that I am going to get deep into my being...
It is this:
I deserve to have enjoyable holidays and celebrations with my loved ones. I can receive love and gifts as well as give freely to others.
WOW!
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theatre and I are there already. I'm having a very berry tea with crackers, cheese and cherry tomatoes and she's having a joint with some beer and we're both on really comfy recliners on thick pile carpet. we need some help with the decor if anyone is around??
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I'm trying to exercise daily. I was doing fairly well until I sprained my ankle 2 weeks ago but now I'm getting back on the horse. Today I walked over a mile with my arm weights that are about 22lbs total. I was out of shape and it was hard on my arms. I also did my 30 situps. I'm also going to drink a lot of water and try to eat healthy. I do tend to have a sweet tooth but I'm cutting...
You ar worthy and you deserve this!
Make that your mantra and believe....
then MAKE them. all YOURS, they begin with u. pretty awesome.
what i did...and now my daughter keeps them going...and on and on...
:D
xoxo Di