I’m really the unhappiest I have ever been.
My life feels like a disaster, and I don’t see a light at the end of the tunnel, how long do I have to keep waiting? Keep waiting for things to get better, but I feel like it never will. I’ve lost too many years, and I’ll never get them back.
I am a victim of child abuse. I’ve been hurt for too many years. And I just think “what did I ever do to deserve this?”
Yeah I just don’t see things getting any better, and I want to die.
edit: I am seeing a counselor currently
currently waiting on surgery and my anxiety is so high lately, and i feel overwhelmed by so much emotions. is it normal to feel depressed pre-surgery?it does scare me, not being in control of it all, and not knowing what will happen. today was one of the worst, having an argument with my boyfriend and listening to the possible procedures with my surgeon put me on the edge. I guess im just...
I don’t like how everytime i do one little thing wrong i get so negative towards myself. for example: today i had trouble getting my calculator open and just thought “wow what the fuck is wrong with you? you’re so stupid” etc. it sounds stupid when i type it or say it out loud but it’s so frequent especially at school. like i tell myself i’m gonna be nicer and not be so hard on...