for the past couple years I haven't spoken to any friends, I am coming to accept that all those bonds are broken, it is sad to think that I will never know those people again, but more and more I find myself thinking I am not worth spending time with, on top of that I don't enjoy anyone's company, all I can do is smoke tons of marijuana, listen to music and think about how I will get out of my situation/space out, I can't even get in a journal entry or a book, I am becoming brain dead, and worse i think i might be turning into a hermit
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