I had a few really close friends. I then met a guy, fell in love, and got married. No one liked him but only because they wouldn't give him a chance....he was on parole. It's been two years and I have been trying to make amends with my friends. A few of them tell me they are to busy to hang out. That's fine expect they have an excuse every time and I have asked like 50 times. I even asked them to pick a day. Then I contact an old friend and he is like "why are you contacting me?" I told him that I was trying to make amends with my friends and he's all like, "why are you contacting me?" So I told him if he didn't want me to talk to him I wouldn't. He says no it's not like that he just thinks I am not telling him the "real" reason why I am contacting him. I mean wow. Can't someone just realize that they don't want to spend their life without their friends??? Guess it doesn't matter cuz no one wants to be my friend anymore. And after I did so much for all of them. Just another reason why I wish God would take me home.
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