Hello everyone this is my first day in this community and i come here because i'm looing my grip. I know everyone says it's good to be positive and look for the good in things..... well i've never been that kind of person and frankly i'm seriously doubting i ever will be. I have been depressed for longer than i care to remember and i'm tired of it, i'm tired of the constant crying, the feelings of helplessness and detachment. i'm tired of feeling alone and that nobody understands or cares. I relize that so many have it worse than me and i know i shouldn't be whining about my life. So many things have happened that have pulled me down so far i really don't know if i have the strength or desire for that matter to try and get back up. I don't know what to do anymore. I can't motivate myself to do anything. Focusing on anything is a joke, unless of course it's some horrible memory or feeling. They run free all day and night. I just feel so alone right now. I apologize for the rant, i just don't have anyone else to vent to.
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