I just wanted to introduce myself. I have been depressed since a teenager. Now I am married with two kids. The cycle has never stopped. I resist getting medicated. My postpartum years were the worse. I hated my husband for years and he became addicted to the internet and has cheated on me with an online chatroom friend. I can't blame my unhappiness on my childhood or circumstances. I really have a stable lifestyle looking from the outside. Somehow, I fall into these traps and I feel myself falling out of control. It feels like my world is so dark and hopeless when I am st my worse bouts of depression. Lately, I have been doing great, mostly due to my husband being more pleasant again. I am getting over my internet addiction, and don't want any more online affairs. I look forward to seeing my kids' bright faces in the morning when I wake up. Previously, I dreaded going to bed knowing I need to wake up to care for the kids. I no longer feel the anxiety that pained me so much. There is always hope at the end of the dark tunnel.
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