Am I in the right place? I dont know. I want to fall asleep and never wake up again. I have finally reached my last straw and cant take another minute. What do you do when you just dont care anymore. I dont cry, I dont laugh, I dont care. I dont eat, I dont have friends, I dont leave this spot on my bed except to go to work, then I come right back to it. I just want it all to end. If I have one more day to face, I am going to scream and break everything I own. That is the way I feel at this moment and I dont have one friend to call or talk to. Not one. Pathetic I guess. I dont feel sorry for myself, I feel like a huge failure, and that I deserve this because I am such a huge loser and am such a worthless person that I cant even make myself feel better than this. Urgh. Maybe this was a bad idea to come here, I am just a little afraid to not be connected to someone, anyone, at this very moment.
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